Believe It or Not

It is not about this!

It`s not Ripley`s Believe It Or Not but a crazy thing I did in a peaceful day.

I expressed my feeling towards a girl and gave her a small bundle of roses in front of the class during the speech test. Everyone was surprised and teachers smartly called up a break to soften the atmosphere. The girl, of course went out to take the fresh air to reclaim her mind. Friends, almost all encouraged me and felt proud for me while some disagreed with me silently, among them was one of my best friend. Teachers, they seemed like enjoying it as I apologized and chatted with them later. One knew that to be happened as she had saw my flower and helped me to hide it.

The girl, a Malaysian who came here at the same plane with me. She is strong in her will as she seemed extraordinary calmly when delivered her speech straightly after mine. She did not intend to avoid me or just make an instant reply but answered me honestly at the same night that she would like to drag this matter for awhile. We chatted and joked as usual as we did in my room. That`s why I loved her so much that I took such approach.

Not saying that I am gambling in a dice throw as I had confessed to her personally in one-on-one situation beforehand. She made no promise or reply but smiling sweetly whenever I touched the line. She seemed happy and loved that, however, she played safely and took everything out from me. She told me similar thing had happened to her last time, she never know how to act upon it. I guess I have to continue on to try my best and buy her time.

That`s bad jokes back then being told among my friends at the time she came to my room every night, just chatting and doing homework. When I lied, it sounds unfair to her. Thus, I decided to make it straight and public. Not about our relation, but my feeling.

That`s here I am for another day, fighting for my future and love in Japan.